Day 13 - that bloody period has finally stopped!!! Still no hot flashes or mood swings, but extraordinarily horny!
I had actually said that I wouldn't swing during the IVF process at all. I didn't know how the drugs were going to affect me and I thought I should take it easy, concentrate on the process. But I'm really fine at the moment and right now the sum total of the process is one injection each morning. With lots of exciting erotic opportunities manifesting themselves, let's just make the most out of it NOW! Who knows how I'll feel once I start on the stimulating drugs in another week or so.
At the back of my mind I know I'm fighting a bigger fight - I'm proving too myself and the world that I can do this and still live, still be happy and excited irrespective of the question whether the IVF will work or not. I'm also fighting the idea that I need to be a slave to this child already - in complete denial of any of my other needs. If this works, I may just eat my words on the day when I don't want to exist for anything other than my child. But today is not that day.
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